By nature I am a positive person (believe it or not lol!) - even on the days when 'I'm fine' 😊 and the events and happenings of the past 8 or 9 months have caused me to reflect more so than usual on my life.
I am a firm believer that something good can be found in almost every day, and most circumstances. Of course not all, and we all have our dark times, but by and large I am a 'count your blessings' kinda girl 😊
It may sound trite but truly I believe there is a right for every wrong, a light at the end of each tunnel (though some may be longer, darker & more perilous than others) and a new dawn after every dark night.
So I have been striving lately to make my world smaller, focus in on what's truly important, listen and see all the blessings around me.
I am so grateful to have support from so many friends who have really come through for me. There have been times in the past where I have felt so focused on my narrow little world, consumed by it. Where I have emptied myself out for others, often the wrong ones, and neglected myself enormously. But apparently there have been people all along who saw it differently. Until I quietened the volume, cut out the noise, stopped pouring myself out in the wrong places, I didn't see it and I have been truly overwhelmed by the love and support I have received from so many places.
There's the friend who came & cut up my old sofa, took it to the tip for me - on one of the hottest days of the year.
The friend who took me to the hospital, sat with my kids & took care of them while I underwent a short procedure and looked after us all, despite the many responsibilities she already has in her own life.
The many friends who message me just to see how I am, send me sweet Meme's or little encouraging texts. Each one lifts my heart in many ways.
The friend that took me & the kids out for the day when He moved out, and spent the day picnicking and running around after my kids, keeping them occupied & wearing them out so I could just 'be'.
The friend that made sure my birthday didn't pass un-noticed & made me a beautiful birthday lunch of all my favourite things and an armful of thoughtful gifts.
The friend that used a day's annual leave, just to sit in the car with me while I drove a 3 hour round trip to pick up my daughter from her first camp - because she knew I was dreading doing the journey on my own.
The friend that bought a new Captain's hat for my son, so we will always have a back up in case he loses his.
The friend that made me these, 3 hearts 💚💛💜
The friend with a new baby & another under 4 year old, who collected two sets of the Beatrix Potter 50p coins as a surprise keepsake for my children & brought me a bottle of wine 'just for being a great Mum'.
The friend who was manically texting me map pages after we got lost on our LEGOLAND disaster day!
The friend who invited me & the kids away with them from the weekend, and surprised me with the cutest personalized mug for my cups of tea!
The friend who bought me this to hang on my new bedroom wall, which makes me smile every day -
So very many kindnesses, in so very many ways 💓
And, of course, the opportunities I've been given - finding so many wonderful new friends via Twitter. Nearly 3000 of them!!
Connecting & working with some wonderful brands to review their products - Letterbox Lab, Smartick Method, Curiosity Box, Sylvanian Families.... with more in the pipeline.
Reviewing books for some wonderfully talented authors -
And making awesome connections with other Mums, parents, Bloggers, Autistic Community, Writers, Home Educators and just fabulous, wonderfully interesting and inspirational people.
So yeah, there are days when 'I'm fine' but on each and every one of them I count my blessings - and I thank you all for being in that number xx